I positively hate the feeling of being in a rut. It sorta makes me feel like a failure. Like, why am I not blissfully happy with my life the way I normally am? Why is everything boring? Why do I want to be by myself all the time? All I know for sure is this: the last two times I was in a rut this bad, drastic changes occurred in my life that took me to an even greater level of happiness. The first time, my ex dumped me. Yes, I bawled my eyes out like a baby and watched the entire season of the Bachelorette that year. But when the dust settled, I was happier than I could ever remember being. The second time, I quit my job and went back to school. Right now it's hard because I want the end product, despite knowing that I need to get through the means first.
I wonder what will happen this time. I'm carefully taking inventory of what my life currently entails, and deciding what's important and what isn't. I'm ready to either take action to make a change, or confront a change that occurs from the outside. Either way, a new and imporved Maryn is on the way. Even though it kind of sucks right now to be on the brink and be bored with the status quo, I can feel the excitement starting to course through my veins. Something is going to happen this year. I just know it. Stay tuned.
